First post
Well, this is the first post in my blog relating to my journey of self discovery. After a fairly bizarre couple of years with some fairly unusual occurences I have decided to take a step back from my life and try to establish where, what and who I want to be.
To this end, last week I quit my job, bought a one way ticket to Hong Kong and am now counting down the 4 weeks and 5 days until I get on a plane from Gatwick.
How do I feel about this now....? Well, a little nervous, more than slightly anxious (I don't think I've ever done anything this spontaneous in my life) but overall i think this is the best possible route for me to take. In the last 6 months I've failed in relationships with the 2 most amazing women I have ever met in my life, and to be honest, I'm just really tired. This trip will give me the opportunity to look at my life from an external perspective and to examine my original intentions, hopefully leading me onto the path that will carry me through to the next chapter of my life.
The reason for this change - well, thats pretty simple. I fell in love with a really good friend who was in a relationship with one of my closest friends and my feelings towards her were (unbeknownst to me) reciprocated. She left her partner and we ended up seeing each other. Since that time we've had somewhere between the most amazing relationship and the most terrible. We've been going round in circles for the past 4 months, and eventually a couple of weeks ago decided to call it a day. Thats not to say we don't get on. We're still really close friends. Whatever happens in the future I will always be there for her, but our relationship is over - a closed chapter. I want her to be happy, whatever that entails - is there anything else that you could ask for someone who you love so much?
Well, my first blog entry reads like a Barbara Cartland novel and thats not the half of it - let's just say it's a heavily abridged version....but it gives background to the reasons for my leaving, and that, I suppose will be pretty important as this Blog continues. I'm not even sure who I will tell about this blog, whether people will stumble across it by accident, or whether it will be just for me, a record for the future of where I was emotionally, and geographically in 2006/2007
Those who have come to an impasse should examine their
original intentions; those who have succeeded should note where
they are heading. ~Huanchu Daoren
To this end, last week I quit my job, bought a one way ticket to Hong Kong and am now counting down the 4 weeks and 5 days until I get on a plane from Gatwick.
How do I feel about this now....? Well, a little nervous, more than slightly anxious (I don't think I've ever done anything this spontaneous in my life) but overall i think this is the best possible route for me to take. In the last 6 months I've failed in relationships with the 2 most amazing women I have ever met in my life, and to be honest, I'm just really tired. This trip will give me the opportunity to look at my life from an external perspective and to examine my original intentions, hopefully leading me onto the path that will carry me through to the next chapter of my life.
The reason for this change - well, thats pretty simple. I fell in love with a really good friend who was in a relationship with one of my closest friends and my feelings towards her were (unbeknownst to me) reciprocated. She left her partner and we ended up seeing each other. Since that time we've had somewhere between the most amazing relationship and the most terrible. We've been going round in circles for the past 4 months, and eventually a couple of weeks ago decided to call it a day. Thats not to say we don't get on. We're still really close friends. Whatever happens in the future I will always be there for her, but our relationship is over - a closed chapter. I want her to be happy, whatever that entails - is there anything else that you could ask for someone who you love so much?
Well, my first blog entry reads like a Barbara Cartland novel and thats not the half of it - let's just say it's a heavily abridged version....but it gives background to the reasons for my leaving, and that, I suppose will be pretty important as this Blog continues. I'm not even sure who I will tell about this blog, whether people will stumble across it by accident, or whether it will be just for me, a record for the future of where I was emotionally, and geographically in 2006/2007
posted by Roachy at 4:51 pm
2 Comments:
Good start to your blog buddy, I will miss you and look forward to sharing in your journey, even you will be out in the world and I will be stuck behind my desk!!
Good luck in all you do
Gail
x
Hey man take it easy, hope life settles down for you and your loved ones.
Rockbyter
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